She is here. Routinely I smoothe her fine black hair that is already thick and long, suck on her chubby fingers that we used to see only in ultrasound pictures, kiss the bottom of her soft pink feet, and lift her tiny bum to my face. Still, these moments feel unreal. After we reaffirm forContinue reading “She Is Here”
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Love Will Guide Me
On my nightstand is a book describing the benefits of giving baby massages. Supposedly, my gentle touches on her skin would be like tender words spoken into her ears. The cover is soft pink and gray, and the baby on it has bright blue eyes and a rosebud for lips. I also have a bookContinue reading “Love Will Guide Me”
A Dose of Joy
At my first surgery about 12 years ago, I informed my doctor and then, later, the anesthesiologist, that I was afraid of anesthesia awareness. (I had watched an old Oprah episode about this, where one of the guests described feeling the hot blade of a knife cutting into her abdomen during her surgery.) The anesthesiologistContinue reading “A Dose of Joy”
Today’s Plan
I’ve reorganized the nursery closet three times already in the last two months. This afternoon, I transferred the clothes from the right end back to the left end. I think it is better to keep the baby’s onesies, dresses, socks, and swaddle blankets on the left side of the closet and to reserve the rightContinue reading “Today’s Plan”
Reality in Beautiful Pieces
My friend is sitting at the end of the table across from the chair I am sitting in. The purplish long-sleeve cotton T-shirt she is wearing hugs her body and is radiant against her cream skin. The purple is nearing a deep blue shade, like a jewel. The new necklace hanging down her chest isContinue reading “Reality in Beautiful Pieces”
Fireflies and Daffodils 