A Dose of Joy

A Dose of Joy

At my first surgery about 12 years ago, I informed my doctor and then, later, the anesthesiologist that I was afraid of anesthesia awareness.  (I had watched an old Oprah episode about this, where one of the guests described feeling the hot blade of a knife cutting into her abdomen during her surgery.)  The anesthesiologist … Continue reading

Today’s Plan

Today’s Plan

I’ve reorganized the nursery closet three times already in the last two months. This afternoon, I transferred the clothes from the right end back to the left end. I think it is better to keep the baby’s onesies, dresses, socks, and swaddle blankets on the left side of the closet and to reserve the right … Continue reading

Regardless of Age or Stage

Regardless of Age or Stage

On Sunday morning Danith visited Daffy and Kiri at the river without me. I hadn’t known about the trip until he texted me with pictures. Danith and I experienced our first loss about eight years ago. We had gone in for several ultrasounds when the prognosis was not promising. The night before the final ultrasound, … Continue reading

Reality in Beautiful Pieces

Reality in Beautiful Pieces

My friend is sitting at the end of the table across from the chair I am sitting in. The purplish long-sleeve cotton T-shirt she is wearing hugs her body and is radiant against her cream skin. The purple is nearing a deep blue shade, like a jewel. The new necklace hanging down her chest is … Continue reading

Looking Back At Old TV Shows

Looking Back At Old TV Shows

On the rare occasion that we rent a movie at home to watch, it must pass Danith’s litmus test. The movie can be no more than five years old. A film decorated with Oscars or was expensively budgeted or was spearheaded by a respected director does not impress or intrigue him enough even for consideration. … Continue reading